I struggle. I gain clarity. Then my mind kicks in with a 100 different scenarios and a thousand more possibilities.  Add other people’s opinions into the mix to make the overwhelm complete and instead of unleashing the beast to the world, my little seed of divine inspiration gets buried again.

And the reason I know it’s divine inspiration and not just another ‘good idea’?

No matter how many times I cover it with shit, ignore it, stamp on it or belittle it, it keeps popping back up.

My divine inspiration is in fact, this blog. What you’re reading now. I know, it doesn’t look much and if you can ever be arsed to look through the archives you’ll see it’s a hotch potch of stuff. A meandering of my thoughts and feelings, some silly, some with some with great information, some inspirational and a few that are down right raw and personal.

The challenge I have though, is what I’ve been doing with RawRRR is not enough.

It’s inconsistent, it lacks direction, it has no clear focus or message… in fact what IS it?

At the moment it’s just a collection of my thoughts – whatever pops into my mind that I fancy writing about, whether it’s relationships, sex, eating healthily, a great new tune, some positive thinking, internet marketing, designing a life of my dreams…

I want to continue to share things that I find interesting but now I also want to get a bit more structured about it.  I want to be able to EXPLAIN to someone what RawRRR is and capture the interest of people who may be interested in my message… ermmm… whatever that is.

I also want to help.

Help you get something you want. What can I offer?

I also want to give something that is worth so much to you that maybe you’d be willing to pay for something some day – information or access to a membership area, or maybe I’ll offer a service, doing for you what I’ve done for me? Who knows, I sure as hell don’t at the moment.

I don’t like the raw food labels. I definitely don’t see myself as a raw foodie. I’m someone who’s sharing my journey on self discovery, facing my ‘challenges’, winning for a while, losing for a while, having another go… and another.. and another.. and oh well you get my drift *lol*

But what’s my fricking purpose?

Why the fuck am I here?

What is RawRRR all about and should I keep coming back to it or I should I just put the seed on the compost?

Then I notice I’m using the word ‘should’ and that reminds me I’m trying to figure all this out with my head. When I want to be going within my heart and asking there.

Bah!

That means I really am going to have to do all the things I tell other people about *lol* … meditate daily, eat a fairly high raw, wholefoods diet daily, drink 2 – 3 litres of water daily, and journal daily.

Daily.

…

I know it works… I’ve done it long enough before to know it works… so why bother stopping and then wishing for a shortcut when I know there isn’t one, I just have to do ‘the work’ until it feels natural and odd when I don’t do it.

Maybe I’ll just do that and continue to share what I’m up to on RawRRR.  Change the layout into more of a website and not just a blog so you can find information YOU want to read easily.  Give you a place to interact with me and other people who come here more easily.  And not worry about what RawRRR is. Just let it evolve and show me.

Just let go.

Simple.

What do you think?