I keep being reminded by the Universe, to take consistent action. And to do what makes ME feel happy. Although I’ve not been writing on here much in the past week and a half, I have been writing in my personal journal almost daily. Which helps. How? Well it helps get all the shit that [...]

I’ve been so out of touch with myself, I’ve only fully realised recently, how I squash my feelings of joy and excitement. WTF!!! I’ll feel that stirring inside my belly, like butterflies, sort of making me feel a bit uneasy and then my mind kicks in and says – ‘think about something else.’ Or, maybe [...]

You may know that I signed up with Bird to go to a Tantra workshop/information evening last night at the Impure Art gallery located below She Said Erotic Boutique in Brighton. I was REALLY excited about it and was enjoying feeling a little bit naughty every time I thought about it. So what were my [...]

I’m awake again at 5am this morning. I’ve been waking between 3 and 5am for over a week now as I’m sleeping for about 5 hours max but strangely enough this feels ok. At first I was just frustrated, lying there with stuff and nonsense, little white lies and big beastie fears whizzing through my [...]

Long distance love affairs have been a common theme for me – well ermmm twice actually *lol*.  My marriage was to someone who is in the armed forces, so he was constantly going away and my new love is to a fricking Belgian.  How did I manage that? When I’d healed enough from the closure [...]

  *Bats eyelashes* Today, I’m talking about sex and all that jazz. Why? Because yesterday, me ‘n Bird were sat in my back garden in the sunshine having a cuppa and giggling like a couple of witches (as usual). We’d been talking about our unexpected experience on Sunday, of finding ourselves sat on a lush [...]

I keep waking early. And by early this means 3am – 4am ish and I’m wondering why. Oh that’ll be the 1001 thoughts rushing through my head I guess *lol* maybe it’s time to start writing them down in a journal and getting them out of me and either on paper or into the Universe [...]

  Helloooo, yes it’s me and I’m sorry I’ve not been around much.  I thought my last post was so fricking negative I better shut up for a while *lol* so now it’s time to let go of indecision and make way for fresh thoughts instead! The past week has been utter turmoil for me, [...]

  Mountains of crap, frustration, boredom. That’s what I feel like I’ve surrounded myself with and it ain’t pretty and all my knowledge of positive thinking and experience of spiritual growth is screaming at me to turn it all into positives. ARSE. That’s what I want to say.  ARSE ARSE ARSE TIT BUM. FUCK. *Breathes [...]

This is my personal financial life right now – scraping rock bottom. I’ve not been this skint since I was a teenager, having left home within a couple of months of my 16th birthday.  No matter how broke I was then, or hungry, or cold,  it was still the right choice for me to have [...]